...This would never happen."
-Simple Plan
The past would never reenter your present.
The drama would be nonexistent.
The awkwardness wouldn't happen.
The power of emotion from experiences past wouldn't cloud your judgement.
Seeing him there wouldn't tug at your heart.
His face would just blend into the wave of unnamed, unmarked faces that float by in your everyday.
No thoughts would race through your mind.
Not one bittersweet memory would dance into your vision.
A person couldn't love a substance more than another human being.
Addictions and desires wouldn't break a relationship into pieces.
Cheating would never happen.
Lies wouldn't crumble walls built from trust.
...but that's not the world we live in...
Our world is:
condemned. ignorant. broken. hateful. depressing.
hurtful. rude. evil. hypnotic.
greedy. chaotic. impatient. stubborn. toxic.
In order to survive the world, you cannot live by your own strength.
I cannot change the world, but I can change my view about it.
I may not like the things I go through, but I know they make me stronger.
I wouldn't be who I am today without going through
the pain.
the lies.
the hurt.
the cheating.
the addictions.
the idols.
the struggles.
the drama.
the memories.
the mistakes.
the brokenness.
the solarity.
I guess what I've come to learn is...
Your past shapes your present, and your present molds your future.
You can't just have one.
Life doesn't fit nicely into three clear-cut categories:
past, present, future.
Life is messy.
Life is unpredictable.
There is hurt.
There is pain.
But there is also joy and happiness.
One can choose to learn from their past and change,
or dwell on their mistakes and lose themselves.
There is no cliffnotes for living.
You have to go through life alone.
Well not entirely,
You go through life with God.
As much as you wish it,
There is no way to skip forward or rewind life.
You have to live.
You can't live in the past realistically.
The future hasn't happened yet.
So live NOW.
Live in the present with a hope for the future.
Live with trust in God.
There is no perfect world,
unless it's heaven.
But I'm not there yet.
My story on earth is still being written.
I don't know why.
I don't know for how long.
I don't know which direction it'll go next.
But I do know, that it still is.
So, let the adventures continue.
And may the odds be ever in my favor.
(haha that won't happen, not all the time, but a girl can dream right?)
